Thursday, January 27, 2011

Four-Year-Old's Thoughts

Tonight after supper, I sent Helen to the bathtub. I let her soak while I was cleaning the kitchen. Several minutes passed until I checked on her, letting her know I was ready to wash her.

She said, "Mom, I just want to die."

I wasn't sure I heard her correctly, so I asked her to repeat herself.

"Mom, I want to see Quinn again."

Sweetheart.

I explained that Jesus had a different plan for Quinn than He has for her, that He has something special for her to do here on earth while she is alive, something special for her to learn. "And besides," I told her, "Daddy and I would miss you so much, and we would be so sad if you died."

Her solution? "Then our whole family should die together."

10 comments:

Janice said...

Those thoughts are amazing and heart breaking. . . makes me want to give Helen a big hug!

Jodi said...

How dear and precious. The heart of your four year old. God hears her along with her earthly parents and will bless her immensely. Love to your family...

Ashley said...

Bless her little heart. I love the honesty of children. Praying for you guys today.

Anonymous said...

Wow! Oh Helen, you are much too precious. My heart cries for you all.

Melissa said...

Helen sounds like such a sweet little girl. I can't imagine what you must be feeling - cyber hugs coming your way!

Grandma Ruby said...

That makes tears come. I love your explanation to Helen in answer to her thoughts. She must think often of heaven & of the little sister she misses so much. I wonder what God has in His plans for Helen! The journey continues. We love you all.

heather said...

Oh Joyce, tears over here too! Helen you sweet little thing. So sorry for this heartache!! Isn't it amazing how she internalized this...so glad she could get it out and you can work through it with her. What a good mama you are, there's a plan. It seems so hazzy and fuzzy right now, and I hate the loss you have suffered. It seems very unfair. But bless you for giving Helen the hope & peace that only Jesus offers.

Lynette said...

Dying doesn't seem near as scary after someone you loves goes before you. Sweet little Helen.

Uncle Kev said...

Helen is a pretty deep thinker...I knew she was a smarty pants girl. Gotta love my little niece!

Days Family said...

I have to come here every few months to read your very creativly written, funny and oftentimes tear-inducing blog. Joyce, I always looked up to you (with you being older and all) and wow, what a wonderful wife, mother and homemaker you have become. I am glad to say we are sisters in Christ. Praying for your sweet little girl and your breaking hearts. Thank you for sharing.